home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

6 more today, total 369., early morning walk is the same, its the same cycle, walk, ceragem, pain, sleep, walk. need something major to occur to break this cycle, possibilities are :-

1. injurous fall,
2. heart attack,
3. death
4. financial windfall,or best of all,
5. walking recovery.
ya allah, i submit to you.