growing too fast

in my pre-stroke life, there were many instances where i had the good fortune to taste first things which my peers-contemporaries never dreamed of. case in point was that at age 26 i was already driving a saab car zooming around k.l. So, in my confinement, i have often wondered whether this stroke is another one of those instance, wherein i am experiencing something prematurely, something that should have struck me when older. looking on the bright side, i now know how it feels to be old and infirmed and when all the body, not just one side, deteroriates in later life, it would not come as a shock. i am mentally tuned to be infirmed and to death.alhamdulillah

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

yesterday and all day today, so far(3.07pm) the muscles pain in my affected leg was pretty intense. did not stop my walking or ceragem theraphy.,i plodded on and now only the evening session is left , starting at 4 p.m. could not do my last walking session due to the rain. i am in severe pain now and my body feels like the onset of a fever. nothing better than to look forward to a good night's sleep, inshaallah

malay traits - pesta

yes, pesta, any excuse to get together, gossip and devour humongous quantities of fatty oily food, but at the lake club, they would call it, syrup job, no alcohol ,please, appearances must be maintained.malays are pesta-toxicated, hari raya open house, wedding kenduri, doa selamat, the inevitable put on jobs by politicians to show that they exist. malays and pesta are like ebony and ivory, always together.

life in kg pulau meranti - court jester/bouncer

in every community there is the court jester and bouncer. here, the closest semblance to a court jester is pak rahman, the veritable baiyeeee(so called because of his long flowing beard ) running his food stall near the mosque. very opinionated definitely but not nearly so funny.the bouncer is definitely amran, a fat boy/man with very bad teeth but personable.working as a security guard( i told you so) at one of the chinese-owned factories. he goes missing for a few months ,once in a while, makes me wonder if it is in incarceration or running away from police/ other mobsters. ok, ok, ok, i know no heroine so far, well not that was obvious to me, but let me dig deeper, there must be one.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

still plodding on, walking and ceragem theraphy today was ok, pain at the hip muscle very intense

life in kg pulau meranti

the favourite occupation for males here are either security guards or driver. got uniform-lah ma, rela is a favourite parttime job, got allowance and can raid all those indons and banglas and can then brag about it for the whole month. if lucky, get to pickup a few ringgits and the occasional handphone.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

still plodding on, same again today re walking and ceragem theraphy, except that for the teraphy there was more reaction at the affected foot after it was heated up.feels as if the muscles are akin to cables unbundling.

malay traits

it seems that malays have trouble with the basic essence of work and business, tha is timekeeping. why???, one of my wife's employees must have had a whole horde of relatives falling ill or becoming a goner in the last year

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

still plodding on with my walking effort and ceragem teraphy. more muscle pain in the affected leg, looking forward to sleep when the pain slowly goes away

malay traits

funny thing that in my confinement i began to glaringly notice the negative traits of the malays. firstly is not taking any responsibility but fighting tooth and nail for the glory. case in point, the nasi lemak mak cik this morning was lamenting the high price of egg. thankfully,. she did not blame the ayam.

life in kg pulau meranti

every kampung must have their kaypochee guy. here it is haji sidek. he is everywhere, in the school and masjid committee and of course , jkkk and rela. if there is anything happening here, hj sidek would be the best source of information. bless this guy. you want to organise a kenduri, wedding, doa selamat, or a burial. he is the one to inform. he will organise everything,from A to Z, you just get the money ready.he is also on to his second wife currently.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

completed my walking and ceragem theraphy as planned yesterday and today. did not post yesterday as had some problem with password. everything is same, still pushing hard on the walking, alhamdulillah, no fall so far.

life in kg pulau meranti

for those in the siti of kl, you might be surprised to know that in this kampung pulau meranti, sex is very much alive. what i have come to know is that the preponderance of adult males currently cohabiting with a second wife or having 2 wives simultaneously is very much in evidence. i supposed something similar is in most kampungs as a result of attrition and lack of opportunity in other avenues.me wonder why i wasted 20 years in the siti of kl.should have taken that FELDA job instead of the petronas one, could have been king of felda sg sayong. ha life, one wrong choice and man you are a dead duck.no point lamenting, it has been decided for you by allah and he is the ultimate.so???, just work hard to go to heaven and dream of all those virgins, not a bad return on investment, mind you.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

walking and ceragem theraphy same as yesterday. my walking feels infinistimally better, alhamdulillah

life in kg pulau meranti

the central character here is of course our ketua kampung, en muslim, a retired government servant. many things have been said about him, he however has not inflict any harm on me, so i remain neutral and with hope that he could help me somewhere sometime someday.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

did my prayers, my doa, my walking , the ceragem theraphy. dear god, where are you ????

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

had 3 satisfactory walking sessions, cheated on the ceragem theraphy, less than an hour done at each session. i feel good, daily walking should gradually improve, months maybe or perhaps years. will still use the wheelchair occasionally, very handy to get the best parking spots.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

did in full both my morning walk and ceragem theraphy. midday and evening sessions of both was a mixed bag, not completed in full but more like half done, forgivable i think, it being a sunday today, nevertheless, i shall plod on

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

did my 3 one-hour session and walked and walked except for a 2 hour afternoon sleep today. got dispirited after my prelunch walk when i realised that all the muscles on the left side from shoulder to foot needs to be primed, thats a whole lot of muscles, wonder how long it will take??. perked up after my early evening walk, as walking was ok, not so much hard work. so plod on and on i will and inshallah, another one of my long list of do or die mission in my life!!!

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

change my routine today to 3 one hour session , each wherein i wrapped the hot bag around my knee as i feel that the knee is now the weakest point and place the external, shall i call it pod, right under my affected feet. am enjoying the extra walking and miraculously, alhamdulillah, walking seems easier with very little imbalance, albeit step by step. definitely an improvement now, so i will plod on in this manner till something major happens and would then evaluate changes, if any.am happy with my progress. more walking was definitely a fantastic decision.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

6 more, 387 total. have walked most today, more than eversince the stroke. seems to me that the muscles mostly gone frigid as a result of the stroke, so my theory is that more walking should make them supple enough so that walking would be easier, inshaallah

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

6 again, 381 total. walking this morning was better, i could feel a slight improvement , easier, feels as if mentally and physically i am eager to walk, less hesitation, i even hopped over onto the platform where our front door is, where normally i would hold the door frame first, inshaallah!!!, must keep plodding on

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

another 6, 375 total. morning walk was ok. have a feeling that i need to attempt to walk more, so have added 2 more short walk routine to my schedule, at 9aq and 6 pm.what a catch 22 situation, need to walk more to cure but walking requires so much effort, mentally and physically, nevertheless, must plod on, inshaallah.

life in kampung pulau meranti

lets start today, cast of characters in kg pulau meranti are:---.
main character is of course, yours truly, more in coming days

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

6 more today, total 369., early morning walk is the same, its the same cycle, walk, ceragem, pain, sleep, walk. need something major to occur to break this cycle, possibilities are :-

1. injurous fall,
2. heart attack,
3. death
4. financial windfall,or best of all,
5. walking recovery.
ya allah, i submit to you.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

6 again today, 363 total. morning walk to the raintree at the gate went ok today, when will i will be able to speed to it, taking around 17 to 20 mins from my bedroom to the raintree now.target is to first cut it down to 10 minutes within 6 months, inshaallah. thats by the end of the year.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

another 6, 357 total. walking to the raintree this morning was ok, aching pain all day though at the toe and the other fingers of the feet. very good sign, once the aching goes off , walking should be much easier, inshaallah.what i do now is just wrap my entire affected foot with the complimentary hotbag provided. it is so soothing on the feet and sometimes it gets real itchy indicating more senses at the feet.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

6 again today, 351 total, walking to the raintree was good this morning. then whilst listening to the friday khutbah, my toe had a violent spasm and the pain at the hip was temporarily relieved, thats the entire circuit correcting itself. muscle hip pain is back now and i expect it to be relieved after a good sleep tonight, inshaallah. all good news, more walking , more pain, plodding-on , it is just like priming a pump. inshaallah when all parts are primed, the pain should go away and walking would be much better.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

another 6 today, 345 total. my walking this morning to the 20 footer raintree at the gate was smooth. could it be a prelude to good things coming soon.we will see what tomorrow brings, meanwhile ,muscles in affected leg are aching painfully. all good signs. alhamdulillah.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

6 today, 339 total. walking to the front gate is easier, alhamdulillah, twitching now at upper body. all positive signs. so plod on

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

another 6 today, total 333. pain still there but moving upwards nearer to the shoulder joint.

home ceragem theraphy - plodding on

on the basis that there could be a silver lining at the end of this home ceragem teraphy, i plodded on with another 5 sessions today, total 327.inshaallah.

home ceragem theraphy - pain

based on the concept of no pain, no gain, today must be a good day as the pain in the leg muscles was continuous all day, 6 sessions today, 322 total.

home ceragem theraphy - almost there

another 5 today, total 316. walking seems easier, alhamdulillah, however aching pain at the hip refuse to go away.

home ceragem theraphy - almost there

311 total, 5 yesterday and going for 6 today. morning walk fine, slowly getting better. alhamdulillah, inshaallah walking should be ok in a few months more.

dropping off like flies

a cardiff colleague passed away last week, pak ya. well, here comes the great show of life, one by one will be dropping off, when will it be me???

home ceragem theraphy - almost there

in the last ten days since lightning zapped my pc i have continued to maintain the 4 times a day routine bringing the total number to 300 by today and syukur alhamdulillah my walking is definitely better. the downside is that by early evening the muscles in my thigh and hip are sore , but then again , NO PAIN , NO GAIN, SO THE SORENESS AND PAIN ARE DEFINITELY GOOD SIGNS. AND MY LATEST DISCOVERY IS THAT ITS THE MUSCLES ON YOUR BACK THATS THE KEY TO WALKING, THEY KEEP YOU UPRIGHT AND I PRESUME THATS THE KEY TO STABILITY IN WALKING. ALMOST THERE,ALHAMDULILLAH, MAYBE A FEW MORE MONTHS OF WALKING AND THEN, MY BEST FRIEND NONAD HAS PROMISED ME A TRIP TO BETONG SOON AS I CAN REASONABLY WALK.WATCH OUT BETONG!!!!