you know, this mind that god gifted us is amazing, just by convincing myself this morning that my stroke is god's gift, i am feeling buoyant all this morning. yes, it's been 4 years since i stroked. some might say" how time flies". i would only say wow!!!!. what a journey. it was a free gift from allah, if i may elucidate herewith:-
1). the agony- physical - yeah being disabled means i can't drive to anywhere, cannot amble at a reasonable clip around my land, can't write, can't perform acrobatic sexual needs. why even shitting is a torment.
but, mind you i am still breathing, alhamdulillah, other people now drive me so no worries about petrol, toll, road tax, vehicle maintainance and most crucially, traffic jams additionally, bless malaysians, everywhrere i go don't have to worry about parking , yes oku parking right at the front.. cannot amble, ok i am now forced to appreciate the beauty and intricacies of nature at every step, everything was new to me, even the much despised lallang. can't write, wow what a good excuse not to write anything, there is the pc keyboard anyway, can't perform , thats ok, i let my partner do the acrobatics and just lie on my back and shout ahhhhh. it's my turn to say it's too bigggg. shitting is now almost back to normal, once a week, every monday morning.
2). mental agony :- initially , it was a time of why me?? what have i done to deserve it???,
eventually, wow great, this is god's greatest gift, a reminder for me to alter my wayward ways, where others aspire to be more religious in later life and failed, i am forced to slow down and turn to allah, as thats my only salvation. so, friends, the mandatory prayers are now automatic to me. this affliction is also a cleanser of all my previous sins, inshaallah, heaven awaits me, with all those wonderful virgins and flowing rivers underneath the abode.
yes, i have had a free education, compliments of allah. it's all free , no charges, no 2 plus 1 or 3 plus 1,syukur alhamdulillah.ALLAHUAKBAR
watch out world, i will be back sooner than you think!!!!!
basck to my aspirations, in my previos adult .life, i was a closet socialist, inshaallah, this affliction has reminded me where my sentiments and conscience lies, my reason of living is to make a difference to all trhe small people using my super god given intwellect, ALLAHUAKBAR!!!!.
so, to end this wonderful expiatuion before i get carried away, again allahuakbar , to all the friends i have made in the last 4 years and those who have been there for me, most especially my wonderful sisters and brothers and not least my mother, i love you all and god bless you.
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