money

early on in my working carrier, money was easily procured, salary and perks, especially benefits in kind, kept increasing from one job to another . then when i went into business from 1993 till the year 2000, man it pours, not just cash but my banker, pubic bank, was easy in their lending. with the slightest of effort, i would easily secure a project or bank funding. not now, i have been trying for almost a year, but still unable to secure not even 1 cents of funding, inspite of the beloved PROJEK RANGSANGAN OF OUR NEW PRIME MINISTER. MY DEAR PM, where are all the rangsangan money???. is it because i am not an UMNO member or not related to an UMNO stalwart??? i am desperate to do business, i have the knowledge, i have the collateral. why is it so difficult for me to secure funding???. ya ALLAH!!!!, what else do i need to do??? i have turned to you,seek your assistance, do my prayers, avoid whatever you beseech, why?????. all i want is to do something, contribute to society, guide my second son and then wait for your calling. money?, i have felt and tasted, it definitely is not the root of all evil, living is easier in this world with money. too much money is definitely a no, no. just enough to lead a meaningful life, cukuplah, dear allah