life

i have reason to be ponderous today as 2 things struck right at the epicentre of my being :-

1. are my enemies to be hated???
2. The pursuit of happiness???, efficiency or inefficiency

1. enemies, what is the definition of enemy??. isn't it someone who has caused harm to you??? or is it someone who is to all intent and purpose, out to destroy you???. basing on this assunption then mamak iqbal is my only enemy. my wife and her chemor friends are in a different category. they are not out to destroy me but perhaps they were just god's instruments in reshaping my decadent existence, the drinking, karaoke, gambling.ok, i can forgive the chemor bumpkins but my wife???, shouldn't the relationship be" in health and sickness??/."forgive and forget", yes i can and will forgive but forgetting is not possible, the loss of my company, breakup of the family and my stroke, these are real events that happened to me, not easily forgetten but it is my earnest desire to learn all the lessons and reshape my being, which brings us to the second issue

2. for most of my adult life, the pursuit of efficiency was paramount to my existence, efficiency to secure and execute one contract after another. so much so that time was really the only essential essence. in this pursuit, most of the simple fundamental tenets of life was thrown out and ignored, corruption and bribing was standard practice, instant gratification in the form of alcohol and easy sex was devoured without a second thought.inefficiency was looked down upon and made a mockery of. the malay mentality was despised and shunned. this morning, 2 simple incidents brought back to me the joy of simple things., firstly in the car sending my children to school, it took an eternity for my dear wife to sort out my youngest children's outing to the cinema this afternoon, she patiently go over the motion of booking the tickets much to my chagrin. i said to myself, hold on, why not just give them the bloody money to go and let them sort it out. then it struck me that the simple motion of ensuring the tickets were appropriately secured, would heighten the bond between parent and child. then 2 lovely young ladies came to our facility to undertake their art practical. no strutting about, just straight down to the simple expedient of their batik piece, that done, they proceeded to sit down facing each other and enjoy a very very simple morning snacks of some sort of fast food, no fuss about teh tarik, roti canai or nasi lemak, just happily munching away and talking about things in their life, nothing complicated or tiring about the shenanigans of our politicians. ya allah!!, a simple ritual of munching snacks after a job done. so simple !!!, not about how fast it took, or how many strokes involved or the cost of the whole exercise. inefficient, yes!!!1, yet so simple and simply satisfying. thank you girls, you have shown me the way. allahuakbar???.