puasa/hari raya

puasa and hari raya has come and gone, back to the daily grind, which for me is the constant effort to keep my mind occupied and put in that extra effort in my physical theraphy. yesterday afternoon i tried going on the treadmill, my what a monstrous effort just to lift my affected leg, try as i might i could only last 1 minutes, how did all those old people in the john hopkins study stayed on for 4o minutes?. the good thing was that i could now fathom how much i had lost because of the stroke, lifting my knee was sooooooo difficult, my affected leg feels like lead it require me to concentrate and literally force my brain to urge my left knee to move, my each step requires a humongous effort. i can feel the benefit i will derive if i can rhythymically lift the knee but how to do it, i conclude that there was no other way but to keep trying and trying, lower my targets, keep going, like when i first walked in front of the showroom, 6 months ago this was painfully slow, but now i just look forward, recite surah al-ikhlaas and move forward, it now takes around 12 minutes for me to walk to and fro, inshaallah this treadmill regimen can be conquered in the same manner, first 1min, then 5 mins, ya allah permudahkan usahaku