danger

currently, i am going through a very dangerous phase in my life. i am beginning to question the existence of ALLAH, triggered by lack of improvement in my sustenance and health. however, as of today, i have not gone any further than that,primarily because there is no one else who can offer me improvement in my sustenance and health. so, i will continue with my supplications whilst not expecting anything. just wait for death. thats my best modus operandi for now . it has been more than 10 years since my afflictions and musibah.for the past few years, i have prayed, fasted, zikir, doa ,etc but i am still infirmed and lacking in sustenance. thus where is ALLAH, why is ALLAH IGNORING ME? WHY OH WHY???