roselle extract

Since 20th. october last year(2015), i have introduced to my body juice extracts from the roselle plant, 1 cup before breakfast and another one cup before dinner. the tally as of today(23rd. april 2016) is 234 cups . there were days missed consuming it, almost entirely due to my extract stock having ran out.

i lost the PR battle

STATE OF MY LIFE

it seems appropriate tonight to take stock of myself , past, present and future.it is coming to the eleventh year of my stroke . whilst i have recovered to some degree,i.e. i can now amble to anywhere i want, albeit at a very much reduced speed, but the point is i am mobile up to a safe distance of say 30 feet . i still cannot use my affected left hand.thus it would be safe to assume tonight that i will not fully recover , will not be able to walk and use my left hand like before. oddly pre-stroke, i was left handed. only a miracle can restore my physical ability to before, regrettably i am not a robot or PC, THUS NO CHANCE OF REBOOTING, AND MIRACLE ,ALTHOUGH VERY MUCH SOUGHT AFTER, IS HIGHLY UNLIKELY AS THOSE PARALYSED AND very VERY PIOUS FOR EXAMPLE, THE PREVIOUS INDONESIAN PRESIDENT GUS DUR AND PATRON OF INABAH, PAK, FORGOTTEN HIS NAME,EVEN THOUGH VERY VERY PIOUS NEVER RECOVERED THEIR FULL PHYSICAL ABILITY. SO, HAVING ESTABLISHED ALL these, what does the future hold for me . reality,:- i must accept that my active participation in life in this world is over, just have to make the best of what i am able to do:- i am able to eat, shit, talk, think,sleep use my PC AND HANDPHONE. and be nice to everybody. do not create any conflict, no stress,.i must now prepare for death and the life hereafter. preparing for death:- nothing much to do here as i do not have any asset to pass down to my children or donate to charity. only thing i have already advised my eldest son to set aside rgt 2000 for my burial and funeral, which i believe he has done so. preparing for life hereafter:- the obvious target is to go to heaven, from the countless lectures that i have heard, i stand in good stead here as all the calamity?(tests) that struck me was ALLAH'S decree of cleansing my sins, and everyday i prayed the repentance prayer and ask for forgiveness from ALLAH at least 500 times .so the thing to do is just to continue all these , prayers, zikir and supplication till the day i die. how will i die?? it really is not important as there is nothing that i can do do hasten or avoid it. it could happen anytime, anyplace. but my assesment is that it will be lung cancer. must add the supplication that i die in the condition of islam and with minimal pain. so thats it, my children, siblings , relatives, friends, wife, ex wife, ex girlfriends, ex everything,INSHAALLAH SEE YOU IN HEAVEN.