leaving pulau meranti

yesterday, i uprooted and left pulau meranti, it had been a most trying, almost 8 years, after what had seemed a great start,having built an oversized house and my family all back together after several years of separation as a result of madness by my wife and her mamak relative. alas, god has set a more challenging plan for me, my fate, whereby stroke afflicted me in july 2005 and my wife's batik business never really took off, though full of hype but without substance, financially it was a failure. outwardly, with shows, overseas trips for her and workshops, to the small mind, it seems to have succeeded. however, ultimately, business is about making money and not for show, it is easy not to have creditors or debtors, just do not do any business.for me, cash is king, hence the not so difficult decision to cash-in and seek new pastures. living in the kampung had been a great awakening, observing firsthand of how the jaguhs kampung were conned by UMNO, conned by the chinese abetted by UMNO and conned by the few among them especially those entrusted with authority by UMNO. the males , inevitably gravitated to jobs with uniforms, RELA, police, security guards, etc- can wear rayban and hassle indons and banglas lah. so, it wasn't exactly a sad farewell, it is sadness mixed with full of expectations of the future and a bit of fear of the uncertain future. Once again, wifeless and lonely, how could that guy sang alone again, naturally, being alone is not natural!!!.it sucks.